Not just blogging (of course I was a huge fan on myspace and xanga way back when) but I used to journal almost daily. Of course, at 12 and 13 the most interesting things I really had to say was that my crush of 3 years looked at me during lunch. (Seriously, was I pathetic or what?). But lately I have been feeling this huge urge to express myself. I am assuming that my leave of absence wasn't because I had nothing to talk about, rather, I had nothing that I could talk about. I buried myself in quite a few situations that even aimless writing would lead to a huge spill of emotion and information.
Now, almost 6 years after my last journal experience, I am back to share what my 19 years of life has revealed to me, or just a piece for now...
1. God loves me.
Simple, right? Or maybe easier to say than it is to believe. I lean more towards the latter. Sure- I can talk about God and his unconditional, relentless love for me, but I have only begun to grasp it the past few months. After hitting a rock-bottom of sorts, God was still standing there, just waiting for me to ask him to show back up in my life (Matthew 7:7). And not just show up, but show off. He has not only picked me up from the situation I had put MYSELF in, but He has pulled me so much closer to Him and into a relationship I could only dream of just mere months ago. God loves me, no questions asked, no catch, He just does. How easy it is to love Him right back when I feel His love in my absolute lowest and darkest times.
2. That ^ is all you really need to know.
There is a time and place for theology, and a time and place for religion. But the rudimentary, essential, cornerstone to living the absolute best Christian life that you can is understanding that God loves you- and not just understanding, but experiencing that love first hand and claiming it for yourself. When someone can let themselves just be wholly loved by God, then you have no other option but to return that love. (I guess technically you do, but who really turns down a God who is captivated by you and absolutely adores you). So letting God love you, and loving Him right back. There is a part 2 to this and it is just as essential.
3. Loving people.
Now, I know a thing or two about this. I am a lover. I am a 110% romantic. Whether it is a person, a pet, a plant- I get attached. I am actually so carefree with my fondness that I get my heart broken constantly. Because people are human, very human, and sometimes they mess up. Or a lot of the time. With that being said, me (being very human as well) have managed to create my own blacklist of "enemies" or people who have ripped my heart out one too many times and have forever been banned from my love, or so i thought. Little did I know, that the more I fall in love with my Creator (who by the way created my ever-forgiving, too romantic heart because He wanted it that way) the more that I can't help but love people, even the ones I thought I could hate forever.
So it all comes full circle. Jesus repeatedly (and I don't mean 2 or 3 times) tells us to love God and to love people.
How easy it is to love people the way Christ asked us to when we let Him(and not other people who love conditionally) be our example of a lover.
